Social Distance?!

So, recently I started going into the office a few days a week. It’s been an experience. I’m realising some unique awareness…things I notice. I’m learning things about myself and my experiences and relationships. The little things; the quirks; pet peeves. And sometimes it feels like things are escalating and I feel stressed. I miss my home desk. I like the ability to control my work environment. Yes, there are distractions in my home space too… the neighbor’s re-model, internet drops, a slack message which shifts my focus. In my homeoffice, there are no people. In the office, there are others around me. I’m not scared of getting sick…well, I’m cautiously aware. I go to enjoy the social aspects of the office. I feel fulfilled talking with people. I like having a coffee with small chat. I enjoy eating lunch in a different place, alone or with a friend.

A few weeks ago I noticed how sitting next to someone, heightens my social awkwardness. They started to feel like an annoying sibling. To be fair, they are my family..my work family, so why wouldn’t they feel like siblings and cousins. It made sense to me, I understood. It made sense why I was feeling that social awkwardness. It was an adjustment. I am adjusting to the new environment, an environment which requires me to see others and make adjustments.